I don't talk I just text!

So as most of you know I am single...

So I went out two Fridays ago and while out mingling with some friends I met a guy. We will call him Mr. X. When I first walked into the place I did not really see too many other people that looked like me so, I proceeded to the ladies room handled my business and found a seat where my friends were sitting. My friend says hey that guy is checking you out and I was like whatever, so I looked up and indeed Mr. X was looking at me like I was his last drink of water in the desert and he needed me to live. SO I totally look away and most likely was blushing. So my friends and I chatted so more only to look up again and see Mr. X at the bar looking at me like I was a biscuit and he had a big plate of syrup that he was ready to sop me up with. So I downed my drink and went over to the pool table where Mr. X was playing. I said hey do you want to teach me how to play? (i can play pool a little but I needed a line at this point) He said sure he went over got a pool stick for me to use and started to teach me the basics about pool. I missed the first two shots for good measure and I made two shots, as I was about to go for the third shot he says hmm and licks his lips you may not be able to make that shot since you are so heavily endowed (thoughts in my head man you don't know me why are you talking about my breast, but I think I let him get away with that comment because he was in a well tailored nice fitting suit, that always makes me melt! ) so I let it go, sunk the shot and then missed the next one. So he beat me at the pool game. I politely told him you are suppose to let the lady win. So after all that was said and done his friend showed up and I excused myself, but before I could do that Mr. X asked me for my number and gave me both of his. So he txt'd me that night to see if I made it home safely which I had. So he proceeds to tell me ohh I don't like talking on the phone I like to txt I am better in person talking. (once again in my head I am thinking this is weird as hell you are 37 and you don't know how to talk on the phone) so one day I guess he got brave and decided to call me. Let's just say I hope he never calls me again in my natural life because he was in fact horrible on the phone. But my question to you all is: How do you get to know someone over txt messaging? I think it is impossible. We are set to go out sometime this week. Let's see how this works.

Until next time I am a southern girl living in the city trying to figure out how to get to know someone over txt message.

Peace and Blessings.

Sick and tired of being Sick and tired (a mini rant)

For the past few weeks I have been trying to keep myself positive and upbeat... Well it is not working to say the least. Well it is working but I think today is just my boiling point. I am so irked right now that I literally have a headache and a stomach ache. Too add insult to injury I am disappointed in the way a few things are going in my life right now. I am trying to hold it together but I feel a totally break down coming sooner then later. I mean one of those I cry until my face is swollen in bed, blinds drawn type thing to just purge myself and get my act together. (anyone else ever do that or is it just me).

One major thing that irks me is that I despise my job but at the same time I truly blessed to have one. I guess I never saw myself here at 26 years old. It is so funny how you never know how your life is going to turn out. Although these last few years have been very trying at the end of the day I still finish somewhere on top and that gives me a little comfort. But I sometimes wish my peers weren't so damn good at what they do lol.

I just have to get out of this funk and work towards my goals. I have made progress but not nearly enough, maybe I am just not hungry for it but whatever it is I have to find it.

I am sick and tired of being tired with life, happiness, money, and all of the above.

If it is to be it is up to me. So I determined to put it all out there and find what it is I am missing. If I haven't learned anything else in what I feel like are the worse years of my life also know as the 20's I have learned that God is truly awesome I look back at the things I use to do and I just have to praise him because he is truly molding me into a women after his own heart. So I am learning to wait on him and his direction ( Lord please don't take to long I am slowly losing it) but I have full faith that he will lead me and guide me. So as I go through this journey called life I try not to be irked but just stay focus on his word, so today I am focusing on these two scriptures....

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God Philippians 4:6

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

until next time still a southern girl living in the big city

peace and blessings

Paying one's dues

No I am not talking about paying your dues to an organization in which you belong. I am talking about paying dues professionally. I work in an office and in that office I have two people who are very high on on the government chain. So the highest person on that chain came out of his office today and asked me to get soup for three people and handed me money.

I am sure he saw the disgust in my face. IT is not that I think I am too good to go get some one's soup, but I do often wonder why can't he go get his own soup. Walking down that hall with the big bosses ten dollar bill in my pocket made me feel like Celie from the color purple. yes sir Mistah.

I guess the reason this bothers me is because I am not his direct assistant and I am the only person of color in the office. With that being said I walked down the hall and got his Soup. I guess I am paying my dues, I just hope and pray that one day I will be finish paying my dues and be able to function normally in the workforce.

When I left grad school I saw myself paying my dues by working in some one's policy department and having to do all the research, endnotes, and formatting of papers. Too me someone who wants to write policy this is how they pay their dues they get the worst or the least desirable task in the office, like formatting papers to end notes. I however have to pay my dues by getting soup. So I will continue to pay my dues and push forward to move up the ladder, so that one day I won't have to pay my dues!!

Southern Girl Living in the Big City paying her dues.

Peace and Blessings.

*Blogger's note* I was very pissed at first about this, but i realize no need to be so I let it go! This blog help me to vent my frustration Happy Reading. Do you feel like you are still paying your dues and do you think you will ever stop* Also sorry for any typo's or grammatical errors written in the heat of the moment.

Feeings will get Hurt...

So I am broke not just regular broke but like past broke. My kitchen cupboards are bare type broke. I just paid out a hefty sum of money to get my car fixed and now I will be struggle for the rest of the month. I am tried of this viscous cycle. Will I ever be able to stand on my own two feet as most adults do?

SO September is a horrible month to be broke. Most of my sistafriends birthdays are in September and my brother from another motha Dan the Man's Birthday is this month as well. People are busy making plans and are super excited for their birthday. But I have nothing on it.

I have already upset one friend and really not trying to upset anymore but I truly have nothing on it. So am I wrong for bowing out gracefully? What can I do? I love ya but I have nothing on it. I am so tired of being broke it's not funny. (the worse part is I get up and go to work everyday and I am still broke).

Southern Girl Living in the Big City and Broke.


Maybe I can find a sugar daddy so I can be happy like ole girl in the picture